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Yeah it was one of those days today (yesterday.)  One of those days where you want to sit in a corner and cry and end the day by dying or having something awesome happen.

Well Im still alive so that must mean something awesome happened right?

Nope...night just got worse.

I checked out a townhouse today that is for rent by owner.  The ad said "pets allowed" just to find out that the dude was like "yeah no pets."

-_-

Sorry dude the fur kids are coming whether you like it or not.

After that little unsettling moment, I went to work...

...boy do I love work....

Well one girl flipped out at another girl, causing the other girl (a dear friend of mine) to cry and go to the point of scratching a hole in her skin.

...boy...do I love work....

I tried to get that image out of my head.  Then I got my own anxiety attack.  Money is tight, how will I keep everyone fed?  Work was kicking my butt so that wasnt fun.

Anyway...I found a pretty cute Tails plushie in the dollar claw machine.  I almost won him...ALMOST.  By almost, I mean that he fell right by the hole with his legs hanging over.

Speaking of...why does Tails have a helicopter?  I mean the coolest thing about the cute lil fox is that he can fly just by spinning his tails....







Anyway back on topic.  So after work sucking, I waited outside for my wonderful icing to my cake!  Well he said that we needed to talk.  He has a problem with moving because he doesnt have a job.

*flush* well there goes my happiness....

I begged and begged but he wont budge.  He says he just wants to stand on his own two feet.  I completely understand but how many people just get up and walk on their own?  He says he will collect unemployment.  Great!  Your half is payed for!  Sounds responsible eh?  So whats my problem you ask?

1. I HATE being alone!  
2. I waited so long to move in with him where we are now...aaannnd hes gone again.
3. Im starting to think about food constantly again.  I only eat in front of him.  No boyfriend, no food.  Sounds perfect in my head but I know it isnt right.
4. After a stressful day, I just want to talk and cuddle.  Things arent getting better any time soon.

Call it selfish, call it what you want.  There is also the fact that the front door and bathroom wall arent sealed correctly in our little shack.  He already has an ear problem exacerbated by the cold weather.  On top of being poorly insulated, water comes through!  That and we share everything.  I dont own any silverware or a bed or anything like that and cant afford one either!

So Im terribly sad.  I hope I can change his mind somehow....soon.